I teach firs....I mean Kindergarten?

I teach first grade. This is what I first think when people ask what I do. The 133 sight words, digraphs and blends, shoelace eating, coin counting, 100-chanting, clique-forming comfort that is first grade. Except I don't...I teach Kindergarten. Letter sounds, "Mom" calling, child chasing Kindergarten.
 At a new school. In a new place. With new children. New joys. New challenges. A fuller day than first grade for me was, a bigger class, and 6 Transitional Kindergarten students.
I am exhausted all the time. My classroom has little cell phone service, so gone are the days of secretly texting Ms. Sigler, Ms. Amsterdam, or Ms. Henry down the hall about my student coming to them for a stern talking to. Now I can grab my faulty walkie-talkie that makes crazy scratching sounds to which the kids grumpily complain "That's annoying me!" (Guess who taught them that phrase?;) I see little bags forming under my eyes, find 9 o clock to be an increasingly more appropriate time to climb under the covers, and catch myself singing made-up lyrics to freire jacque under my breath more than I care to admit.
There's a certain magic about Kindergarten I try to cultivate or capture for at least one moment a day. I, like so many, tend to focus on the negative moments in the day--the loud voice level, the "STOO-OOPS" that echo in my brain, leaving that permanent scowl line in between my eyebrows...but there is something magical there--the first time a student hears an Elephant and Piggie story, or recognizes a sight word, or even eats a pumpkin seed for the VERY.FIRST.TIME. So exciting! I'm trying to stay excited through it all, to not let the disorganized clutter littering my desk, the stack of Independent Studies waiting to be sent home, the 37 (literal) e-mails I have left to write tonight not get in the way of the most important part...the instruction. Writer's Workshop, Zoophonics, Reader's Workshop, Guided Math, Guided Reading, Inquiry-based Science...I want my students to experience it all...to have rigor, success, excellence, but all with wonder and a kind affect.
Is it strange that I find one of the things that predicts how my day will go is the cadence of my voice? Moreso than ever before...when my voice weaves up and down, loud and soft, in and out, with as little words as ever...I can capture the kids moreso than any other strategy I've ever tried. That's my noticing of the day. We're certainly not "there" yet.. but day by day, I'm learning more and becoming more of all that is Kindergarten.